Twentyeight.

Its been so long, I've forgot alll about you.

Here is what goes on in my world at night:

Dream:

Well, I'm around say my upper 20s, and I have 2 kids, ones a boy and I think the other one is a girl. I have no idea where I was at and I was hold a german shepard, full grown, and it was changing from old to young. Then everything was changing, i was somewhere new and i was looking for my kids and I found them watching this like mini portable television and I guess the television new I was there and it freaked out yelling "SHES WATCHING" and I tried pretending I dropped something but then I tried talking to my son about it and I woke up bout was able to fall back asleep into it and I missed the talk part and all I know is he didn't like what the television was telling him. So I was trying to find the people behind whatever was going on with my kids. ( oh BTW I knew I was sleeping, so I was like "guiding myself in my own dream) I came up to this building and it was so weird, it was half underwater, but there was no actual level of water. So I was venturing through trying to find out where to go( not really sure where I was going) and I had to go through some stairs that were underwater and I was freaking out about my phone getting wet(lol) And this guy gave me his cucumber bag(lol) I felt watched the whole time. And i was going down these underwater stairs till I came into some large room, kinda like a bussiness office with no one in it and I knew something bad would happen if i stayed so I turned around to leave before they catched me( not sure what would happen) and the stairs changed into some trap like thing and I couldn't find my way out, there were trick doors and missing things and I woke myself up out of me actually fearing what would happen if I couldn't find my way out.

Twentyseven.

I HAVNT POSTED ONE IN MAY YET.
Oh man.

I dunno what to write.
I just took a sleeping pill and a xanex, how the hell do you spell that? :P
I'm kinda outta it. Lol. Stupid druggie. Mom sad it will work. I think it is.






Theses photos make me cry. I miss my sugar baby :(
I wish I could just take her back.
Silly 20 pound cat.

Twentyfive.

Its been long, right?
I've lost track of time.


Tomorrow is the last day of April.
Meaning its almost May.
Meaning school is about out.
My 10th year out, hopefully my only 10th year :P.
So that means there's 2 years left of High school. Thennnn I go out into the "real world".
Its kinda scary. Yet I'm excited.
So where do I go from there? College? Hair school? :D
Oh the choices.
I'll be 16 in 26 days.
I want to get a summer job. Kinda hard. :P
but I will try!
Now just thinking about it.
I've had 7 homes in my life.
No, 8.
But I don't really count my dads as a "home".
So, I'm random.
My mom always ask the question "what is normal anyways?"
Its kinda depressing.
I have to memorize a paragraph for English and say it in front on class.
I'm going to screw up so bad.
sooooooooososososooooo bad.
Ever heard of the band Flogging Molly?
They are the best live, cause you cant help but get involved with the crowd.
Not the same by yourself though.
ramblerambleramble.
I want to know more about YOUR life. :]
The best music to get me thinking is anything by the Gorillaz.
Sooo, that swine flu going around.
I think people are over reacting.
its 10:03PM and mother is not home!
I think memory is one of the best things out there.
The thought of how the whole human body works creeps me outtt.
I love touching veins.

Take me to a abandoned amusement park :D



Anyone fancy a pair of these?

twentyfour.

Twentythree.

Google is quite entertaining.
Have fun with google and click these sites:


1) Don't feel like googling yourself, well: Let me google that for you!

2) Didn't google that question of yours?: Just fucking google it!

3)Uhh: Google fight!

4) Google the closest thing to God himself?: The church of Google

5)Google: April fools

6) What does google think of you?: Googlism

This is what google thinks of me:
marisa is cool
marisa is a rock star
marisa is in london
marisa is one that has relatively stable water levels
marisa is sold to aquarists but eats almost every vegetation
marisa is doing so well i just want other parents to know that there is hope even on the darkest of days and there are people out there who know what you are
marisa is a hot fuck
marisa is a slight japanese woman in her late thirties
marisa is a loser
marisa is gorgeous
marisa is happy to have the job that allows her to raise her son by herself without the illegal money her deceased spouse earned
marisa is on a steroid that keeps the swelling around her brain
marisa is pleased to provide you with a personal wedding consultant to guide you through your wedding adventure
marisa is a important part of me that should be respected and most of all enjoyed
marisa is off to a great start
marisa is extremely talented and versatile
marisa is terrified for his life
marisa is helping other young latinas become leaders in their communities
marisa is scared to check out books
marisa is being fed
marisa is a graduate of bellaire high school
marisa is slated to appear as a voice on the simpsons this coming season
marisa is of course attracted to grigory
marisa is a 12" latino toddler with soft stuffed body
marisa is loading the refrigerators with bottles of beer and carlos comes out of the back room carrying a metal box with the previous night's receipts in it.

alrighty then.

7) Look into the circle: Google will know

8) Feeling alil backwards?: Elgoog




What a way to spend my Friday night right?
I wouldn't hate coming to my dads as much if I could actually go out.
All I do is sit on my lazy ass and talk on the internet.
I'm so lonely D:

What is it? 7 weeks of school left?
I feel like I wont fail this quarter. Only have to make up a credit somehow the next 2 years.
I want a summer job extremely bad.
Nobody wants a 16 yearold freak with metal in their face and colored hair though. Lol.
Maybe, just maybe I'll get lucky.

Thanks to Christy I read fmylife.com everyday. Lol.

Can you believe this is real? I've never wanted to drive on a bridge more in my life then now.
The structure is 885 feet above the Tarn River valley in southern France.

Twentytwo.

SO!
Let me tell you bout me day!


1st) I got married:

Then I ate here:

Then used the restroom where I used this: (that is my own hairy arm and hand)

Then I went out and purchased this:

Then I HAD to get a copy of this:

Yeah, Life is good :]

Okay okay
Really my day was just filled with tornadoes
And dark skys
Which was perfect :D

Twentyone.

Dreamsdreamsdreams.
I had 2 very clear dreams this morning, the only confusing part is if they were connected. The way I remember seeing it was right after the other as if they were, but.. they couldn't have been. Here, read and you'll see :P

Dream #1:
I got up for school and mom was going to drive me, she said we were leaving at 8. The problem was I couldn't get ready. It was weird. I tried and I was getting frustrated and I just couldn't get ready. Before I knew it it was 8:13, 8:29, 8:54. I was crying and I just c o u l d n' t.

Dream #2:
This one is alil more personal, but I'll tell it anyways :P
It was night/early morning. I was trying to sleep. Tony and Ian were sleeping over. Mom and Tony are arguing, like they normally do, but Ian was getting worked up and scared again that it might turn into something bigger. I get protective over Ian and when he gets involved I get very angry. So I go out to where hes sleeping and try to calm him down, and their fighting gets alil louder and I just had enough. I slam moms door open and I start pretty much screaming at Tony, alil at my mom too. I just couldn't stop yelling at him. I remembering thinking I need to stop, but I kept going. I started crying pretty much at the beginning and you sometimes barely make out what I was saying. And they freaking just sat their staring at me like I'm fucking insane, even looked alil annoyed. Tony had this sarcastic face like he was pleased what hes done to me, mom looked like she didn't care, rather just go to bed already. I keep yelling, my throat started to hurt, but I didn't care. I kept going until my legs collasped on me and I fell to my knees and held my self up with my hands. I stayed like that for a good 10 minutes crying. They just sat there, like they were bored. I got up and I left like nothing happened, because thats how they made it feel. I've never felt so bad. I woke up shaken, crying, and confused cause it seemed soooo realll.

Day Twenty.

I have thee cutest cousins :D
See:

It was Shays 4th birthday :D

Chance :D

Dante :D

By the time they are 20 I'm going to have thousands and thousands of photos of them.

So uh.. I was thinking of turning myself into a red head.
A natural red color with some like hot pink up front or something.
I don't know.

I really do love books about the world being different. I have a feeling I'm going to reread The Host soon.

I really wanna bring my octopus home!

I really want $10 :P

I really want to have deep sleep 8 hours straight :D

I can't wait for Spring Break, I want to spend some of it with those three amazing kids^
10 days of no school :D I think I'm going to spend some of it with my grandma too.
And some days home, sleeping during the day, partying at night. Lol.

While you're on, check out these amazing cliff top towns!: 5 cliff top towns
I'd love to be on the edge of all of these!

Day Nineteen.

Would you still love me?

Check out the art of book covers!: Book Cover Archive

I'd love to do this!: "stranger photos"

Oh My God. A M A Z I N G

Day Eighteen.

So!
I've been recently ( 2 minutes ago) researching my Sun sign. I'll fill you in.
I'm a Gemini, Best one out there :P Lol. Fits me well.

"It's not just idle chatter with these folks, either. The driving force behind a Gemini's conversation is their mind. The Gemini-born are intellectually inclined, forever probing people and places in search of information. Geminis also have a surplus of imagination waiting to be tapped."

"Since Geminis are a mix of the yin and the yang, they are represented perfectly by the Twins. The Gemini-born can easily see both sides of an issue, a wonderfully practical quality. Less practical is the fact that you're not sure which Twin will show up half the time. Geminis may not know who's showing up either, which can prompt others to consider them fickle and restless."

"The Twins also enjoy bringing their objective reasoning and big-picture ability into their personal relationships. While some may perceive all this logical thought as cold and unemotional, it's simply how these folks tick. They want to connect, they just do it their own way."


Now, I researched my Love Sign. Which is the Aries.

"You are active and forthright, no stranger to competition. Those with this placement contain the impatience and daring of a truly alive, free-thinking, variety-seeking adolescent, discovering for the first time the indescribable bliss and inspiration of love with a capital L. Your emotions are changeable, fiery and perhaps a bit on the explosive side. Although you will probably attract a number of people to you with your energetic and super-active lifestyle, beware of your less exciting tendencies. Your self-centeredness (which can border on total self absorption) may leave your pursuits wondering if there is room for two in this affair. Remembering that others may not see things they same way you do will enable you to keep the fires scorching! You will be happiest in a relationship that allows you to be true to yourself." Haha.


Now for my passion sign! Which I'm a Leo in.

"You are overflowing with passion, love of life, and personal magnetism! Your flamboyance and grand nature is rarely matched, and you love the attention you attract. Love is fun, and appreciation of the bigger and better things in life will always be yours. Your energies are often organized and directed. You would make an excellent lover, as it gratifies you to see others enjoying themselves with the same intensity you do. You are creative and playful, and of course, passionate about it all! In matters of the heart, protect yourself from your own ego! It means well, but is so enthusiastic and powerful, it may begin to disrupt you and your partners' domestic bliss! You are willful, so just a little bit of effort will go a long way! You offer generosity to your lovers and are happiest when your love is reciprocated."

Hey look.. Karmic signs! Pisces.

"You have difficulty overcoming past experiences that left you hurt or fearful. This residue of painfulness stays with you -- you are unable to get beyond it and learn from the experience. Your karmic path leads to reacting defensively with oversensitivity -- never being able to examine what went wrong and how you could have improved the situation. Your challenge, if you choose to accept it, is to overcome feelings of paranoia, suspicion and isolation. By accepting your fate less defensively you can turn these traits into assets to balance your personality. Realize that because you cannot learn from past experiences you are open to experience immediate reality more genuinely. By turning the fear around you may find that you can be more 'present' in the moment than others."

^All from astrology.com

I know the internet has all bullshit on your signs. Anybody can pretty much connect to what they say for your horoscopes and such. I just like reading them.

BUT
I have this amazing book, which I meed to find that baby book of mine so I can do all the research to figure the whole thing out about my signs ^-^

Day Seventeen.

Furball that means more to me than most. ^-^

Its been awhile.. like 2 weeks.
I can't think of anything to write.
I have been on here though, following this guy and his pregnant wife. :P
Ever become really attached to your dreams?
Fear forgetting them?
Yeah, me tooo. Lol.
Soo...
I.. uh.. liked today.
The normal high school day I guess.
I can't really remember much except when I worked on my octopus, hes coming out really well ^-^ I hope hot gluing his legs on wont be a problem. Sounds like I'm talking about a real octopus. Lol. I'm working on a few secret side projects ;]
This weekend I'm going to be busy, Biology project and another secret project.
Uhm...
My moms doctor is interested in seeing me for my sleeping troubles.
He said he would prescribe me without having to pay for and take all the test.
He'd give me that good date rape stuff. Lol. ;]
I CANT FINDS THOSE PAPERS. SAM YOU NEVER TOUCH MY STUFF AGAIN.
I absolutely h a t e when people clean/move your stuff.
Anyways,
After school Christy, Steven, and I went to the GSA meeting then walked home.
My blood sugar dropped instantly, defiantly since all I had was cereal in the morning.

Day Sixteen.

I call her.. Wet Dog.

In about 90% of my photos, the way the lighting hits my face makes my nose look bigger then it is.

I purposely made my body look that way in the 1st picture. I reminded myself of a monkey. :P
Maybe one day I'll own make-up remover.

When I went to the eye doctor once, he pointed out me, mom and Sam had perfect noses.
Once my mom went to the dentist they pointed out she had long eyelashes.

I guess when you look at one feature so much you start to notice others. Lol.

I h a t e when you go to the dentist and they have all this crap in in your mouth and they ask questions that cant be answered with a nod.

Mom is gone till at least Sunday.
Too bad Sam is here to ruin the fun. Lol.

"international or national?"

"nation wide is on your side"

Hahaha.

Today has come with good news.

Hahahahaha, I was cute. :P
Old photos are the best.
The older the better!

Day Fifteen

Meet the family :]

Names(starting from left):Aunt Margret, Nana, Mom, me on moms lap ^.^, Aunt Jenn, Samantha, and Uncle Ed.

I look like total crap if you haven't noticed.
Those are some of the most important people in my life :]

I feel like sharing photos tonight :D

Because I think you should know what she looked like, this wass my mom. :P


And this wass my dad.


THEN this happened. Lol




Lol. And my uncle Jimmy.



And Christy :D

Day Fourteen.

Wouldn't you love to read about my views on love, politics, friends, or how hopefully the human race will come together before murdering itself?

Well too bad, you are gonna read about my weekend :D

Lets start out with Friday night.
I cleaned my room. More like throw everything in the closet and hope mom doesn't notice so I can go out. Close enough. Threw random items in a Pacsun shopping bag and dashed out the door dragging mother with me to take me to Brookes.

WAIT

Before dashing out the door I had mom by me those Banana Nut Cheerios AND LET ME TELL YOU! THEY ARE FREAKING AMAZING. BEST CHEERIOS EVERRR. So good I bagged up a few of em so I can have Brooke and Phil try.

Anyways,
I arrive. I cant really remember much before we went to Starbucks at 10:30pm. We spent half the night on the web watching random people. Lol. Passed out pretty early. So Saturday comes and I'm like shit I have a project due for school but I really wanna go to this show. Luckily! Brooke is smart and acts all cute for my mom and she couldn't say no. We were suppose to go see Brokencyde and Hollywood Undead at Jannus Landing but we were too late and it was sold out. So me and Brooke said lets just walk over to State theater, I didn't really care who was playing I was just in the mood for a show. Luckily Breathe Carolina was playing. I like them a lot. State Theater gets way to hot. Don't even have to move and you sweat. Now when you jump up and down and dance its like someones pouring sweat on you. I got a shirt. I always love getting shirts from shows. I met the key player of BC and randomly someone from Sky Eats Airplane. I have photos but uhh.. I don't approve. Lol. The ride there and back was fun sitting 4 people in the back of the car. Pretty much passed out when got home.


BTW, My computers back :D :D :D :D :D :D :D
I lost all my music though.
But I saved my photos :D :D :D :D
What to do with all this speed?
Zoomzoomzoom.

Day Thirteen.

So I'm here talking with step brother Ian and sister Samantha watching The Bad Girls Club. Lol.
They are so mean, girls are just mean.

I'm going to ramble again..
No subjects are entering my mind..


:O Ian said I have eleven minutes. Now I'm not going to have any time to ramble.

So uhh.
I liked school these past two days alot and I'm sad andmy kitchen cabnets are brown and those girls ares being mean again and idk what to say to these people and I want to go to sleep and I miss my computer, I hate this one and.. and.. and.. CHRISTY I NEED MY BIOLOGY BOOK.

I have nothing to talk about.

I just thought I'd post one of these while I have a computer in front of me.

I need something exciting going on in my life.

I need to go somewhere.

I wish fear #1 wasn't talking place right now

Day Twelve.

Wanna hear about the depressing parts of my day?!


Well,
I learned how dependent I am on technology (mainly computers). Mine just crashed like 4/5 days ago and I had n o t h i n g to do because of it. So I came to my dads just for this thing. -sigh- I'm sad with myself.

Adding on to the technology problem, IF I CANT GET THIS THING TO START I CAN LOSE SO MANY PHOTOS THAT MEAN SOOOOOOOOOOO MUCH TO ME. :'[ All I need is 20 minutes to upload them to photobucket or something, all I'm asking!

I've got more D:

So mother wants to get full custody of me so she can get child support and she said I may have to tell the judge lady myself who I want to be with and I can't stand the thought of hurting anyone of them. Dad may be wrong but I am not one to choose D:

They are also going to tell Sam she needs to get a job or she has to find somewhere else to live. I know I know she needs to straighten out, but I fear shes just gonna run. :/

I'm really stressing out lately, I never get headaches but this past week and a 1/2 I've been having migraines lately. Its driving me insane.

School sucks, I try but I fail "you have to try harder"

Anyways.. highlights of the day:

"Thats alright, watching Jerry Springer can make me cry" - Dad
Discussions of biggest fears
I'm a happy kangaroo
Being at 7-11 with the rents
Christys grandma. Lol.

Whats that? you wanna hear about my day? Oooook.
I cant remember much of the morning.
So, funny stuff.
Travis is like " did you mom call my house?"
and were both extremely curious to why my mom would call his house.
I text mother and shes like no? Why would I call him, i dont even have his number.
And hes like but it has her name and he shows me the number that called.
Happens that the number is mine and I found it hilarious.
I dont feel like telling whole story^ lol. It was funnier.



You should listen to "she loves everybody" by Chester French.

I wish I could keep a straight face for a long period of time.

I have disease in a can.

Wanna see me do a 360?

I. Am. A. Robot.
I. Am. Just. Looking. For. Someone. Not. To. Care.
I'll. Be. 36.285 miles. Directly. West. Of. The. Bottom. Right. Corner. Of. Montana.
Please. Visit. If. Your. Open-minded. And. Would. Like. To. See. Something. New.
I. Can. Be. Human. Too.

I'D LIKE TO SAY THAT YOU'RE MY ONLY FEAR
AND WHEN I DREAM IT SLOWLY DISAPPEARS
AND WHEN I WAKE I'M RIGHT HERE BY YOUR SIDE
TO FEEL YOUR HEART BEAT IN AND OUT OF TIME

Me no know what to write D:

Imagination is my favorite thing

Thats a lie, I don't have one favorite thing, sooo its one of my favorite things.
When I was young, one of the most difficult words to spell was favorite and first.

Christy - "I'M A LIL HYPA LOLZ"


And baby when its love if its not rough it isn't fun.
Lol.

I ramble alot, I should end this.

Day Eleven.

I am sick. I am angry. I am stupid. I can't do half the things I want to do. I'm scared. I cant speak to anyone. I am hungry. I am lost.

I'm happy.



You know what? I really really really really HATE when people yell at me.
Like it makes me want to curl up in a ball on my bed under the covers.
I'd rather someone never talk to me then yell at me.
Makes me feel like total shhitt.
I always take the blame for whatever that persons yelling at me for >.<



I JUST LOST HALF OF WHAT I WROTE HERE.
So now Its gonna be short :P

I miss the smell of everything. Stupid sick body of mine.

I had a dream last night. I was the last ( of what? I dont know. ) and these people I didn't know kept tricking me then trying to kill me or make me join them by forcing these strange videos on me. The way they tricked me bothers me. But there were these 2 different ones who helped me ^_^

I HATE how mean people are. Including myself at times.
Like simply by when you walk by someone and smile and they just look away, give you a blank stare, or look at you mean.

Day Ten.

OooOoooOOOoOOo getting into double digits.

So, I have some news I'd like to announce.
-28 minute drum roll-
I'm being told were moving back into Tonys again.
Which surprisingly for half of it I'm happy about.
I miss that lil kid and having my own room.
I feel selfish when I say I want to move back in for Ian knowing I could be causing him more pain if we did. -sigh-
It would be happening in March or April, counting on how the house is looking.

Lol^ The first person to come to mind when I saw this was Christy :D
WE BETTER BE FRIENDS WHEN WERE OLD AND SAGGY :P
I cannot rise again without you :]

I had a goal tonight to bullshit my sketchbook for checking tomorrow.
I didn't do it. v_v

Me and Coco have been talking to each other alllll day. I love that selfish too good for anybody bitch of a cat. Lol

I am 93% fully happy.

Day Nine.

So I consider these online notes to Christy.

So I'm going to pick at things through my brain. The subject I'm picking at: Memories. Any memories. None are favorites or in order of any sort. Just memories.

Luckyrandommemory#1:
The day we went to go see if we wanted to get Navajoe the 2nd. We visited the owners place. And me and Sam started playing with their kids. I was like 7. He was mostly cream with a touch of black. Adorable. BIG PAWS, they never grew cause they didn't need to. :P And we agreed on getting him and the lil boy started crying SO BAD. He wrapped his hands around the puppy and wouldn't let go. They hand to pull him off and he started rolling on the floor kicking his feet. When we got him in the car and started driving away the lil kid tried running after us D: Very sad.

Luckyrandommemory#2:
Ahh, my first sleepover. Kindergarten. I forgot her name. It was her birthday, I felt so awesome being asked to go. I use to have problems trying to spend the night next door before that, I always ended up going back home :P. Anyways. I went, AND I FORGOT THE MOST IMPORTANT THING I WANTED TO BRING. My new (orange VHS) The Rugrats Movie!
So I ended up calling my mother, being proud knowing my # Lol 877-5529, and made her bring it. Then we all huddled up with popcorn and pillows and watched it ^_^ Pillow fights and what not followed.

Luckyrandommemory#3:
My first concert. 30 Seconds to Mars. I had a in love stage with meester Jared. I remember being so short I couldn't see over the people, so I had to stand on a bench thing in the middle of the crowd. Lol.

Luckyrandommemory#4:
My last airplane ride back home. I was alone. I REALLY wanted a window seat and I took the first one I could get. I chose the worst one for a flyer of my type. The window on the wing D: It was nighttime. I love looking at all the lights from the airplane. Well I'm a bit FREAKED about flying. As much as I love it, I hate it more. We had quite the turbulence this ride, and I felt everything cause of sitting on the wing. The guy noticed my breathing badly, and shaking. He just starred. Once it got really bad, And I pretty much ran to one of those lil bathrooms not caring that the lil light says stay in your seat and keep your belt on. I remember looking out the window thinking if it were to crash, I'd watch it go down..

Mom says bedtime! :P

Day Eight.

So I'm sitting here in this bag of flesh, packed full of emotions.
AND I'M WASTING IT BY SITTING HERE DOING ABSOLUTELY NOTHING.

I want to go somewhere!

Have you ever opened your hand then closed it into a fist slowly thinking about the muscle thats pulling your bones to make it happen?

Can you imagine a color that isn't on Earth or known to our eyes?
What if theres far more then we know..

I woke up today at 7:12am
I didn't get to school untill 10:33am

I hate when adults don't listen to you cause your "young"

My mother says I have an "old soul" and I enjoy telling people that.

I wish I could lay out all my point of views right here, But I'm too scared of what people think of me D:

Day Seven.

Lets flip through some random thoughts..


Am I the only one who finds the human race completely amazing?

Lol.

The dog picture over there -->
Yeah I want him tattooed on the back of my left shoulder.
And maybe my more recent dog Navajoe the 2nd on the back of the right.
And "NICE TITS" On my fingers. Lollll.

So my mom finally paid for my permit thing.. And I never got to finishing it yet after having it for 2 days. -sigh-

I kinda miss having a big family v_v

Days are to short D:

I WILL NOT take a pill every night just to get to sleep. I WILL teach myself to fall asleep normally. :P

I will do just about anything to have a pair of these O_o :

I NEED TO GO TO IRELAND. Lol

I NEED BLACK PAINT.

I NEED.. I NEED.. I NEED A LIFE. :P

I also need to get out more.

MMM MMM MMMMMMMMMM.

My next victim >:D

Ians all cute sleeping on the couch -drawsonhisface-

Ive never shown my picture from when I built a snow man!
So I will :P

I look gross cause it rained during the process, And yes its at night. He melted the next day D:
His head fell off, then Riley peed on him v_v

Day Six.

I have no idea what to write about, So I'll tell you my day.

I wasn't able to fall asleep until 2am again, as like the rest of my nights. I kept waking up every hour and I'm about done with this sleeping trouble I'm having. And these stupid blue sleeping pills do nothing for me :/

Anyways,
My alarm goes off at 7:03am.
I lay there till 7:05am.
I get up and turn on my straightener.
Powder my eyes.
Check the time.
Its always 7:14am or 7:16am, then I go out turn on the news lay on the couch not really paying attention to the news till 7:19am. Then I get the weather so I decide what I wear.
I lay there till 7:28am even though I know I'll be running late again.
Drag myself to my room and pick out pieces of clothing.
Go to the bathroom, get dressed, straighten my hair, then apply my load of eyeliner.
Then I look at my phone noticing its 7:48am or later and I rush to get my bag and my iPod.
I rush to the bus stop cause I always think I'm going to miss it. Then I stand there and watch everyone.
8:01am my bus comes.
Row 15, left side, seat by the window.
8:13am I am at school.
I walk to red, blinded half the time by the damn sun.
Walk in noticing I'm the only one. Sit down against wall (wishing I was asleep at home) Mercedes walks in, I hug her leg. Christy and Steven come in. Mercedes leaves. The rest of the morning group eventually joins.
8:36am Time for Geometry.
Yeahhh, I'm not telling you what I was thinking in that class. :P
Soo.. Biology next. 10:00am
I saw my test grade, not goood. Then she never told me about the weekly homework when I switched in so now I have a big fat F.
I wasn't able to go to lunch cause I had to read for English >:/ She left me all alone in the class room and I very much wanted to go threw all her stuff and change grades >:]
I liked being able to choose to go to the bathroom without asking. Lol.
I finished early so I decided not to go to lunch and just read more of The Host. 4th period came to quick we did some stupid grammar think which I didn't pay attention too.
1:25pm HOPE, Health/gym.
Did the same stupid assignment from last semester. I finished quickly and decided to read again.
I almost cried, which I had to hold myself from doing. I'm TOOO into this book.
Then my stupid coach says were going to the gym when we only have 3 minutes until everything is put up and what not so we go to the locker room.
We all had to sit down cause someone was missing there jacket and I was happy the girl next to me decided to talk to me.
2:50pm End of school
I meet up with Mercedes, we walk to the buses. Hug goodbye.
Can't remember bus ride home.
Grabbed key from under mat, walked in, felt light headed, layed down, passed out.
I didn't eat dinner, talked to mom.
attempted dyeing hair except i missed a spot >:/
Now I'm here trying to tell my day while on sleeping medication.



P.S. MSN WAS THE BIGGEST BITCH TODAY.

Day Five.

I'm going to blast Blink-182 and scream it while I write this!

I love being home alone :D

Sometimes.

SO MY DAY! :

Wuzzz grrreat!
Woke up, cooked ma self breakfast.. at lunch.. so brunch?
Then talked with my mother and decided to go to the mall anddd I gots a nose ring :D
WENT TO WALMART
Got home and tried to stick this nose ring in. and omg it wouldn't go in, neither would the stud and I almost cried. So I was like FUCK THIS IS GOING TO HURT and I started like shoving it down and boyyy did it hurt. took me foreverrr to find the fucking other end of the hole. Blood was like all over my face and hands, from this tiny little hole? I know! Hahaha.. I got it in eventually and my nose is like all bruised and in painn.
Thennn, I wanted to read alil of my book The Host:

Which is a G R E A T book. I will not allow myself to read it fast. I'm pretty sad that I'm about to pass the half mark. If you ever wanted a book that will make you think alot, I recommend this one ^ Anyways, Christy Aims ma phone telling me saddening news that our plans drove right into a brick wall. Haha. So we make new plans. we werreee going to go to the fair with Steven and whut not butt uhh yeahh.. so we just went to browse for bus girl. Lol. Then I skipped my way to the to the side of a building and layed down in the middle of the parking lot. And these 4 kids came walking by and theres this empty pool in the back guarded by barb wired fence but they knew how to open it, so they were closing it and the whole fucking fence fell down and it was hilarious! and the smallest of the bunch was trying to fix it and he was like "I have muscles like Hercules but I just don't want to use/show them" then in like 3 minutes they pull this old strange wannabe fancy strolling chair out of there and start pushing each other around. Then of course allll the fun was ruined by a security guard. So we walked back to the fair, decided we were to cool for the damn place so we went to ze BP gas station. hahaha.. So we were purchasing our items and this really old guy walks in asking "Do you guys have whip cream?.. in like a can?" Me and Christy start cracking up. Cause our minds just are not goood. and the cash register guy was like "What are you girls laughing at?.. He too old for whip cream?" Lol. Me already out the door before I start crying and piss my pants, Christy is leaving the guy goes "his dicks gonna fall off" And him being Arabic he said dick like deek. XD.

PICK ME UP NOW, I NEED YOU SO BAD

THE LOOK IN YOUR EYES MAKE ME CRAZY

I'LL TAKE YOU OVER IF YOU LET ME

I'm in a horrible great mood at the moment.
Its weird being both good and bad.
I have those two voices in my head dragging me back and forth.
I also don't know why I'm blogging so much. :P

I hope this site, my blog is still on the web when I'm older so I can come back and read what I wrote.
I was interviewing my mother once about her childhood and she remembered like n o t h i n g and it made me so sad, So I'm trying to not be like that.

Day Four.

Today,
Was exciting.

No school. Major cleaning!
THEN,
Christy, Steven, and Will came over :D
And there was this Fair.. with these rides.. that we couldn't ride..

So I went searching for a photo to explain my feelings today at this fair.
And I got something likeee :
Then I was like that was alllll wrong.
It was more likeee:



:P






Tomorrow,
Were going to ride the rides ;D

Friday the 23rd
Is far more dangerous then the 13th

Day Three.

Today was pretty good I must admit :P
Besides the long 2nd period of Biology.
Andd 6th was horrible. 6th? no 5th.
I started building my octopus vase :D Cant wait to see it finished.

I ordered this beauty:
And I should be receiving it tomorrow :D
THEN I figure out what I'm going to do with it. lol.

Christyyy made me these best cd anyone has ever made me!

You know what name I love? Jade. I wish I had that name :P but it doesn't seem like it'd fit.

Stupid 11pm curfew for the computer. I wish it was the weekend again, so I can sleep in.
I'm addicted to sleep, and listening to music.

I once ruled the world.

I thought it looked pretty outside today.

I

Can't

Think

Of

Anything

To

Say.

Goodnight.