Day Thirteen.

So I'm here talking with step brother Ian and sister Samantha watching The Bad Girls Club. Lol.
They are so mean, girls are just mean.

I'm going to ramble again..
No subjects are entering my mind..


:O Ian said I have eleven minutes. Now I'm not going to have any time to ramble.

So uhh.
I liked school these past two days alot and I'm sad andmy kitchen cabnets are brown and those girls ares being mean again and idk what to say to these people and I want to go to sleep and I miss my computer, I hate this one and.. and.. and.. CHRISTY I NEED MY BIOLOGY BOOK.

I have nothing to talk about.

I just thought I'd post one of these while I have a computer in front of me.

I need something exciting going on in my life.

I need to go somewhere.

I wish fear #1 wasn't talking place right now

Day Twelve.

Wanna hear about the depressing parts of my day?!


Well,
I learned how dependent I am on technology (mainly computers). Mine just crashed like 4/5 days ago and I had n o t h i n g to do because of it. So I came to my dads just for this thing. -sigh- I'm sad with myself.

Adding on to the technology problem, IF I CANT GET THIS THING TO START I CAN LOSE SO MANY PHOTOS THAT MEAN SOOOOOOOOOOO MUCH TO ME. :'[ All I need is 20 minutes to upload them to photobucket or something, all I'm asking!

I've got more D:

So mother wants to get full custody of me so she can get child support and she said I may have to tell the judge lady myself who I want to be with and I can't stand the thought of hurting anyone of them. Dad may be wrong but I am not one to choose D:

They are also going to tell Sam she needs to get a job or she has to find somewhere else to live. I know I know she needs to straighten out, but I fear shes just gonna run. :/

I'm really stressing out lately, I never get headaches but this past week and a 1/2 I've been having migraines lately. Its driving me insane.

School sucks, I try but I fail "you have to try harder"

Anyways.. highlights of the day:

"Thats alright, watching Jerry Springer can make me cry" - Dad
Discussions of biggest fears
I'm a happy kangaroo
Being at 7-11 with the rents
Christys grandma. Lol.

Whats that? you wanna hear about my day? Oooook.
I cant remember much of the morning.
So, funny stuff.
Travis is like " did you mom call my house?"
and were both extremely curious to why my mom would call his house.
I text mother and shes like no? Why would I call him, i dont even have his number.
And hes like but it has her name and he shows me the number that called.
Happens that the number is mine and I found it hilarious.
I dont feel like telling whole story^ lol. It was funnier.



You should listen to "she loves everybody" by Chester French.

I wish I could keep a straight face for a long period of time.

I have disease in a can.

Wanna see me do a 360?

I. Am. A. Robot.
I. Am. Just. Looking. For. Someone. Not. To. Care.
I'll. Be. 36.285 miles. Directly. West. Of. The. Bottom. Right. Corner. Of. Montana.
Please. Visit. If. Your. Open-minded. And. Would. Like. To. See. Something. New.
I. Can. Be. Human. Too.

I'D LIKE TO SAY THAT YOU'RE MY ONLY FEAR
AND WHEN I DREAM IT SLOWLY DISAPPEARS
AND WHEN I WAKE I'M RIGHT HERE BY YOUR SIDE
TO FEEL YOUR HEART BEAT IN AND OUT OF TIME

Me no know what to write D:

Imagination is my favorite thing

Thats a lie, I don't have one favorite thing, sooo its one of my favorite things.
When I was young, one of the most difficult words to spell was favorite and first.

Christy - "I'M A LIL HYPA LOLZ"


And baby when its love if its not rough it isn't fun.
Lol.

I ramble alot, I should end this.

Day Eleven.

I am sick. I am angry. I am stupid. I can't do half the things I want to do. I'm scared. I cant speak to anyone. I am hungry. I am lost.

I'm happy.



You know what? I really really really really HATE when people yell at me.
Like it makes me want to curl up in a ball on my bed under the covers.
I'd rather someone never talk to me then yell at me.
Makes me feel like total shhitt.
I always take the blame for whatever that persons yelling at me for >.<



I JUST LOST HALF OF WHAT I WROTE HERE.
So now Its gonna be short :P

I miss the smell of everything. Stupid sick body of mine.

I had a dream last night. I was the last ( of what? I dont know. ) and these people I didn't know kept tricking me then trying to kill me or make me join them by forcing these strange videos on me. The way they tricked me bothers me. But there were these 2 different ones who helped me ^_^

I HATE how mean people are. Including myself at times.
Like simply by when you walk by someone and smile and they just look away, give you a blank stare, or look at you mean.

Day Ten.

OooOoooOOOoOOo getting into double digits.

So, I have some news I'd like to announce.
-28 minute drum roll-
I'm being told were moving back into Tonys again.
Which surprisingly for half of it I'm happy about.
I miss that lil kid and having my own room.
I feel selfish when I say I want to move back in for Ian knowing I could be causing him more pain if we did. -sigh-
It would be happening in March or April, counting on how the house is looking.

Lol^ The first person to come to mind when I saw this was Christy :D
WE BETTER BE FRIENDS WHEN WERE OLD AND SAGGY :P
I cannot rise again without you :]

I had a goal tonight to bullshit my sketchbook for checking tomorrow.
I didn't do it. v_v

Me and Coco have been talking to each other alllll day. I love that selfish too good for anybody bitch of a cat. Lol

I am 93% fully happy.

Day Nine.

So I consider these online notes to Christy.

So I'm going to pick at things through my brain. The subject I'm picking at: Memories. Any memories. None are favorites or in order of any sort. Just memories.

Luckyrandommemory#1:
The day we went to go see if we wanted to get Navajoe the 2nd. We visited the owners place. And me and Sam started playing with their kids. I was like 7. He was mostly cream with a touch of black. Adorable. BIG PAWS, they never grew cause they didn't need to. :P And we agreed on getting him and the lil boy started crying SO BAD. He wrapped his hands around the puppy and wouldn't let go. They hand to pull him off and he started rolling on the floor kicking his feet. When we got him in the car and started driving away the lil kid tried running after us D: Very sad.

Luckyrandommemory#2:
Ahh, my first sleepover. Kindergarten. I forgot her name. It was her birthday, I felt so awesome being asked to go. I use to have problems trying to spend the night next door before that, I always ended up going back home :P. Anyways. I went, AND I FORGOT THE MOST IMPORTANT THING I WANTED TO BRING. My new (orange VHS) The Rugrats Movie!
So I ended up calling my mother, being proud knowing my # Lol 877-5529, and made her bring it. Then we all huddled up with popcorn and pillows and watched it ^_^ Pillow fights and what not followed.

Luckyrandommemory#3:
My first concert. 30 Seconds to Mars. I had a in love stage with meester Jared. I remember being so short I couldn't see over the people, so I had to stand on a bench thing in the middle of the crowd. Lol.

Luckyrandommemory#4:
My last airplane ride back home. I was alone. I REALLY wanted a window seat and I took the first one I could get. I chose the worst one for a flyer of my type. The window on the wing D: It was nighttime. I love looking at all the lights from the airplane. Well I'm a bit FREAKED about flying. As much as I love it, I hate it more. We had quite the turbulence this ride, and I felt everything cause of sitting on the wing. The guy noticed my breathing badly, and shaking. He just starred. Once it got really bad, And I pretty much ran to one of those lil bathrooms not caring that the lil light says stay in your seat and keep your belt on. I remember looking out the window thinking if it were to crash, I'd watch it go down..

Mom says bedtime! :P